Every now and then, I run into people, who think I’m brave for being open about my spirituality.
I understand what they mean because even though spirituality has always played a big part in my life, it is not something I have always been entirely open about to
It took me some time to come out as a full blow spiritual person.
As a child I closed off the connection to my spiritual channel, or at least in a way that kept me from consciously receiving messages from my guides.
I have a feeling, I sensed too much, which was too overwhelming for a little sensitive girl. So, I shutdown to protect myself.
However, as far back as I remember, I have always had a spiritual side to me, and an interest in all things spiritual. At the age of 15-16 I read books, and went to lectures on parapsychology, and what else it was called back then.
What made the shift
When I was 25 I ran into a fascinating spiritual girl, who could read tarot cards, and knew all sorts of things about chakras and meditation. From that time on I was sold.
I was such a fan of her, and had a deep desire to do all the same amazing things.
At this point, I was unaware that I already had the same gifts.
It did not occur to me that not everybody senses strange things, and are as sensitive to atmospheres and people as I am, and it was not until my early thirties, I really started to understand it.
I came across a weekend clairvoyance workshop. “Cool”, I thought, “How exciting!” Not even in my wildest dreams, did I, however, imagine that I, over the course of that weekend, would be able to see into peoples’ lives the way I did.
I could see
During the exercises, I could see everything from how people lived (which is funny, as I work with feng shui today), down to the smallest details such as “you have quite a lot of coats in your hall way”, and “I can see, you have a bean bag and two
connecting living rooms”, to love triangles, and other personal details from people’s’ lives.
I had a ball, and was completely taken aback by myself.
And I wanted more.
As a result of my excitement about my newfound clairvoyant skills, my spontaneous nature and willingness to try out new things, I immediately signed up for a clairvoyant course.
My clairvoyant teacher was also a numerologist, and helped one of the other students change their name.
At the time, I was rather skeptical about numerology, but when I saw the changes that student went through I decided to give it a go for myself.
Again, not being far from thought to action, I decided to change my name – just like that.
Shortly after the clairvoyance exam, things started to unfold in my life, in ways that really pushed me onto the path I travel today. I was guided towards feng shui and went to USA to train as a feng shui specialist.
Had I lost my mind?
Even though things really started picking up speed, it was only a few people who knew about my spiritual adventures.
It was as though I lived a double life, where I had one part of me, that everybody knew about, who was working as a stylist in the Danish film industry, and another part of me who was on a secret spiritual journey that nobody knew anything about.
Some of my closest relations who knew what I was up to, made a lot of fuss about my clairvoyance training course and feng shui training. And when I decided to change my name, they really started to worry, that I had lost my mind.
That period of my life was filled with struggle and insecurity, but as time went by I matured.
Little by little I revealed my secret spiritual sides to the ones who didn’t know about it, and as I did that, some accepted it (most of them actually) and those who thought I was crazy disappeared from of my life.
And at the same time I began to attract likeminded people with whom I could share my spirituality!
I no longer hide who I am and what I stand for, and I get along just fine with both “believers and non-believers”. We do not have to agree on everything to respect one another.
Yes I was afraid to reveal it all, but I’m still here. I didn’t die. And now I am happy.
You can do the same.
There’s room for you whoever you are and what you believe in, and the more you live a life that’s true to you, the more wonderful people you will have to share it with.
Author and feng shui teacher in Copenhagen, Denmark.
Also blogs in English about her (sometimes not so perfect) everyday life as a human being doing the best she can in this crazy thing called life.
Favorite subjects are; Spirituality, the new paradigm, personal growth, aha-moments, insecurities, love, relationships, kids, health, sustainability, entrepreneurship, imper-fection, successes, ups and downs in life overall.